ever after

my fingers curl around his just one last time making question marks of all the things we never had the courage to understand we delay the saying of final goodbyes we walk past the shop past the pub with its signs in the window exhorting us to dance as though no-one is watching and love…

the end of a chapter

The Commission for Mission is transitioning into a new unit as part of a Synod restructure. I wrote this reflection for the final meeting of the Board yesterday, to be read alongside a video of the work that’s been done over the last 30 years of the CFMs life. It’s a remarkable story of tenacity,…

Instead – a christmas prayer

Instead of searching for belief in a virgin birth, or in the God who comes as human, I hope this year only for the faith to live as if the darkest parts of my life and world are the manger into which love has been born again.

Afraid

Do not be afraid, The angels say. Of what? God? Hell? What everyone else will think? That no-one else will get this? Do not be afraid, The angels say, Which is easy for them. I try to let their voices, Drown out the shouts of exclusion or eternal damnation And my own whispered dread of…

In practice

A confession: If only i could get love right. In theory i have it: Practice of grace undeserved kindness unreciprocated gift Wanting the best for another (Knowing i won’t always be it). In theory, I place my faith in the impossible every day. In practice, When i come face to face with the impossible person,…

all of who we are

A reflection for a meeting this morning, of a highly complex and demanding committee… One of the great gifts that working in the prison gave me was the demand to learn to live with complexity. The oh-so-human tendency to categorise people in terms of oppositional binaries – labelling one as good, and the other as…

metaphor

Reasons why I want to thank Eve for eating the apple: Imagine a world where there was only a garden every day where knowledge existed only of what was right in front of you no need to make choices no need to weigh up the bad and the not so bad the good and the…