how to be here

so this is what it means to be human
knowing that not all stories of pain and love
end with the happy,
that sometimes
this point of raw knowing –
that i’m not whole without you
that i need you to breathe
more than i need myself to breathe –

is its own end.

grief comes
when i search for the guidebook
that says how to be here
without aiming for an impossible there
and when the only place i find it
is in you.