i feel like i’m doing production line worship at the moment – event after event after event, all of them exhibitions …
i’m doing reflection spaces next week for the Uniting Care national conference. It’s an honour to have been asked, and while i’m not yet looking forward to it, i can see that i’m going to enjoy it. The organisers are looking for alternative worship… but, of course, since it’s a conference, I have no control over the space at all – over the lighting, seating, where the focus of attention will be… i can’t do stations, there will be limited multimedia capacity… i don’t know the audience, and they’ve asked for ‘inspiring’. all things that don’t fit what i do, and that go against the definitions of alternative.
up until now i’ve been fighting the limits and getting nowhere. today i’ve just given into them, and stopped thinking it needs to be alternative. it just needs to work with the people and the context. which means it will, by necessity, be word based, and far more direct and concrete than what i would do anywhere else. though starting from that perspective feels like fingernails down a blackboard, i think we’ll end up somewhere good. the letting go has already made the world of difference.
while i love doing this, i’m really missing doing alternative at the moment. i know some people don’t get the difference, but from the planning side of the table, there’s a whole world between them.
all that is to say that it’s deadline hell around here – things will be quiet for the next couple of weeks.
[and i’m thinking of changing the blog into a more traditional website. i wonder if it’s time to make it less a journal of the project and more a collection of resources. a blog, by nature, implies something more personal, and I’m a bit over that… I suspect it would reduce readership, but that’s not ever been the point of it… anyway. it’s just an idea i’m playing with…]