valentines

there is so much today would have been
if the world had been as it should

and this is the moment
where we pretend things are
as they were always meant to be
and yet today is a result of all the things
that have fallen apart
the mistakes
the injustices and unfairness:
the meeting that never happened
the fight that never got resolved
the choice that was too hard to make
the car that swerved when it shouldn’t
[how much you are missed]

and because the pain is too great
i buy you a card
with a sweet
heart
that pretends all is
as it never was going to be.